When I was in year 9 I was always tied down to my friends at school and my bedroom.
There was an incident that can never leave my memory. I always remember it so clearly when ever I tell others about this story, and each time my enthusiastic exclaiming is always exactly the same; Because as a child who was still learning not only about herself, how to deal with difficult situations and no confidence to boot, was tough.
This wasn’t the first time.
These two teachers were notorious for always shattering and shaming me whether it be in the classroom for everyone to hear or for my eyes and ears only.
I was siting at a corner with three of my friends with books that we had been asked to pick out of the sticker colour coated boxes.
I started reading the book I chose for the second time and the first few pages didn’t interest me at all, so I asked my friend what book she was reading and if I could read a few pages of it because I was thinking of getting another book anyway.
Turns out I passed the first chapter and I was hooked! So I made my way to swap my book for a more interesting read.
The teachers then called us back to our tables and went around asking each of us what book we had chosen.
It came to my turn and as soon I said which book I had decided on reading, right in front of the class Miss Hamilton had looked at Miss Russel and said
“are you sure she can read that..I don’t think she can”
Right in front of everyone, then they both looked at me looked back and mind you I could hear every word they were saying and so could the whole class.
It was right at that moment that I had stopped reading all together. I remember feeling so embarrassed and dejected I didn’t even know what to do, I literally just wanted to run to the bathrooms and cry.
Since that day I have only read one book, and is in the stimulating process of reading another.
It’s a healing process.