19.09.16 | 21.09.16
Pause, play
Today I saw remedy n gave her my sugar cane, she told me that anxiety has this way of making you feel too much
Give affirmation to this body, give recognition to all that you have given
Tell this body that we’ll get no where if we don’t do this together, make it understand that it’s not possible for the two souls in this body to work along side state of mind with out its help
That it too is just as important as the heart, the mind
The way this body moves is important
I told remedy how it hurts, that suffering alone is indescribable
That the insides of its complexity becomes too much to explain, it finds a way to overflow with incurable
I gave her its secrets n asked her to do what she can for its motion, watched as I sat back, sinking into the couch, breathed in what intoxicated this body n said to her
Staying in this mood makes me feel comfortable
That allowing into emotional is the only solution I have had to offer when it doesn’t know what to do with its complicated
I clenched my palms softly together looked at this body n begged her for remedy
Watching this body fall n fall time again is tiring, catching the taste of salt water tears, I attempt to gather my senses, reminisce on nothing, think about how to unwind, what complicated means, let its syllables ring as many times needed, n breathe
In this silence she gave me metaphor
Said that running on a broken leg is not a solution, its part of the problem
That healing will always take as much time as it wants
That she’s not saying this was meant to be simple
That you’re strong
Pause
Rewind back to words that make no sense
Strong she said
Backtrack
See what you’ve done she said, see how far you’ve come
Take this time to look at where state of mind n body were, comprehend its progress, recognise n give it your affirmation
Understand that it doesn’t want anybody’s but your own
Tell the souls in this body that it is okay that there are two of you, tell them that it is okay to think the way you do
Repeat this until this gives them normal
Abnormal, play
