Energetic conversations. | 30/9/20
Variations on love, I forgot about you one time, this was the most difficult way I learnt the care in loving you, they mention that distance knows no love not felt, in my Solus about you I filled it with so much silence because I wanted to, we show our chaos shambles of understanding each others efforts, we separate to heal our own inflicted wounds, we caused our pain, this love, because we chose not to believe in its healing, we grew the distance between us some more, do we admit we are as it be until we are as messed up as love — for love, when pain flowers love it becomes a sole garden without knowing bodies binding our hearts, blinded, we do not want to see that this too harbors love powerless — instinctively, we think to admit do our lovers ever really morn moaning our name under their breath to preserve us or let us go, when we settle with our heart we imagine who died in us first was it you or love, the innocence is the best lie about love as an old soul, the flowing magic of being human into love is probably the most honest way to begin to admit to love in the first place (don’t you agree love…)-. We remember words so much our acute eye for actions is almost to a fault — love loves logically and love loves emotionally, actions and words alert the body to love yourself everyday at 5 to 5, divinity asks, does looking for love when you are looking for love count as love, or are we just starved for its tastes, why must we always question affection this way, have we learnt nothing to impact without the lesson, the teaching of our pride will be our greatest revolution, our succumbing to our souls trusting our intuition will be our ultimate test into self love separated yet again, our understanding of love must come from here-. My child, it never really goes away does it? The love always finds a way to restore its self from inside of you, there is no one dumber nor smarter than a being in love, be observant of how you stream through screaming walks of life, I think the pain I feel when I explain liars in my mist is the same as a heart break, find her they’ll say, tell all the guards she is grounded from her heart the only love she is allowed to have is her own until she has broken here her own heart, a joker, the punch line was you not love, a joker, should I just also do nothing and wait, I mean won’t you tell me where is this downfall, here waiting or doing nothing, I did not know this is also love, point taken shuffling the notes realizing they were scrambled to mean a gift you give yourself, talking out loud in your head or in real time is strange but not as uncommon as you think it to actually be, don’t raise your voice at your heart, your mind has been watching you play out this sorry attempt to prove normalcy it is beyond you-. I have found out another buried secret, that I am always miffed at love, I will never always know it’s secrets to the hold it has on lovers, sitting here thinking I am spent at myself, — shocker you’re in love, yet again, what is different this millennia.